Trigger crisis-factor: lack of focus
History: Since early 2006 I had listen: “you need to focus”. But to listen does not mean I understand the impact of the message, because to listen advices does not mean one is at the level to understand them or decode them. However this week the message “hits” me strongly, and today I know and I feel:
- I need to let go all my burdens (actually this is the HARDEST part of all)
- I need to do one step at the time
- I will never ever going to know it all.
It sounds simple, but those three points imply much for me not only for research, also for my persona.
The collapse is to realize, or to think that after so much effort my research as a doodle (see figure below). In addition to feel a personal responsibility to do not disappoint the persons who had trust on me, then I put myself in a worse mess. I am a believer that things will come out fine. I am a fighter, but puff!!! PhD crisis are not my cup of tee.
Even in the middle of my personal twister, I want to express loudly I am blessed for my team: Mikko and Teemu. Very special persons and I appreciate they have patience towards me in my excess of crazy and fuzzy ideas as now in my PhD crisis.
now the focus should be in focus
my research - (figure from mupai)
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